Detox Journal: 1 day left for old habits!

Sitting here enjoying a coffee, and cigarette.  :Tears: Still thinking about the game plan. Think James and I are over the worst of our cold. James still has a bit of a snotty nose, and his eye are red. I'm still getting a light coughing, with a terrible headache, but much improved after us having a nice hot bath last night with MMS (Mineral Miracle Solution). 20 drops activated with 1.5 teaspoons of citric acid. Will do another MMS bath tonight. I also gargled with it last night before bed, and no coughing throughout the night. Unfortunately James can't gargle.

Thinking I will start the detox by doing the original MMS protocol, working up to 6 drops a day. Quit smoking, and drinking coffee, stop all processed foods. Replace any sugar use (which is slight) with Xylitol. Only drink distilled water mix....my own concoction of distilled water, black strap molasses, fresh squeezed lemon juice, and cayenne pepper. It's the recipe for the Master Cleanse drink, but replacing molasses for the maple syrup, and adding a little ionized sea salt. A healthy version of Gatorade. I'll go easy on the pepper, as I want James to be drinking this as well. No more store bought juice, soda, etc. For drinking I also have a tart cherry concentrate that can be added to distilled water, or drizzled on yogurt, oatmeal, etc. Is really amazing stuff!!

Foods will be simple and basic. The only grains will be brown rice, and steel cut oats. Lots of seeds, and nuts, and cold-pressed oils and fats (coconut, olive, etc). No butter. No dairy, except whole milk yogurt. I love Fage yogurt, and don't see much harm in eating it, as long as all the rest of the junk is being cut out. I also think Kefir is good. I was making my own, but dropped the ball on it, and went too long without feeding the Kefir. Will have to buy a new batch of 'mother' to do more. Will be adding more naturally fermented foods.....miso, and sauerkraut off the top of my head. As for meats??? Not sure yet. Will cut back on it for the most part, as well as eggs. Occasionally grass-fed, cage free eggs, more fish, less chicken, and red meat. I'll probably replace this protein with beans/legumes.

I'll start with the supplements I've gathered as well....which is a pretty length list. A prenatal multi-vitamin, Lactoferrin, Fermented Turmeric, Organic Apple Cider Vinegar capsule, and Norwegian Cod Liver Oil. There's a few others I can't remember at the moment.

I'm going to put of the Urine Therapy for a week or two....till I get the initial cleanse going, and get some of the bacterial load down. I got half of my mouth/teeth deep cleaned and still have to do the other half.........to the tune of $500. Plus a tooth fixed/pulled that cracked in half over a month ago. That's not helping. Everything starts with oral health....to be sure! It's a must to get that taken care of. Shitty that it's so expensive!

That's it to start. Need to figure out a protocol for liver flush. There are several to find online. After taking care of dental health, the liver/gallbladder is next. I had my gallbladder removed last year, so need to take that into account. It's very, very important to have the liver clean and working optimally.....in order to achieve any sort of cleanse. I'll post about that more when I figure out what I'm doing with it.

After the liver flush.....can move on to a parasite flush/cleanse. I'll post more about that down the line as well. James will be subject to a lot these changes. More raw fruits and vegetables, more water. He's still breastfeeding so he gets some good nutrition with that. No more junk food, which means that I'm going to have to have a serious talk with his Aunt Beth!! The house is full of cookies, cake, chips, crap cereal.....all within reach and eye sight. That will have to change. Everything is going to be homemade, and fresh. Beth took him to the store this morning and they came back with prepared garlic Texas toast, orange soda, potato chips, cake, and chocolate covered pretzels!!!!!!!!!!! A SERIOUS talk!!!  :D isapproval:

There's still the emotional, mental, spiritual side of the cleanse/detox, but I suppose I'll have to play that by ear......as shit arises!

One day left for OLD HABITS!!!

 

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Detox Journal: Anxiety

This isn't the best format for doing this journal thing. I'm sure no one subscribed to my blog is going to be into updates about me drinking urine, coffee enemas, or the toxic state of my mind!  :Worry: It works for me, since it's here and easy to use....that's what I need....easy. Anyway, tried to figure out a better format, but in the end...........this is gonna have to do. Thought about not making it accessible to the general public, but can't really see the harm in it. I know I appreciate reading other peoples testimonials, so......

I think I'm just freaking out a little. Two days to go and I'm pretty sick again with a cold, and that's not helping. James is sick too, and that's worrying me. I can start the detox while sick, but will have to change it up a little. Start in slower/easier, since my immune system is already being taxed. Want to SUPPORT the healing process, not overwhelm it.

Having bouts of anxiety even before I start, not sure if this is from an ill state of health, or edginess about making such a big change....literally catapulting myself out of my comfort zone, into the unknown. Am I strong enough? Smoking is a huge part of it. Ridiculous to say that coffee and cigarettes is a comforting thing to wake up to. That's absolutely asinine when I have sweet baby James to greet me every morning with his angelic smile, and positive attitude, and unconditional love!!!! Still, it's my mind that's struggling. Without the whole cigs & coffee thing.............my mind flips out. It's a complete waste of time too! Not sure about other smokers, but I'm always.........'taking a break' with the cigs. Inbetween chores, when I'm bored, hungry, tired, thinking, planning, unwinding....it's connect to everything almost. I'm either standing in the kitchen by the over-hood vent, or on the porch....feeling guilty about what smoking, while smoking. It's ridiculous! I don't really believe that smoking is "bad" for people (kept in moderation), more it's how a person feels about smoking. If they don't think it's bad, then I don't believe it's such a big deal. But...when you think it's bad, and you keep doing it.....that's where there's a problem! Same applies to everything. People that LOVE to eat, love to prepare food, and it's all a scared ritual usually don't have the problems that a person has when they think everything they're putting in their mouth is bad for them........and they keep eating the same junk. People that love the work they do, get more energy and inspiration from it. People that hate their work......wear themselves down to a nub. The process is all the same. If there are things you don't enjoy, don't derive pleasure from (in the purest sense).....then why do them?? Problem is........figuring out what you really love, and what you've only convinced yourself you're okay with. There's a lot that I'm only okay with, and that's going to be another layer of crap I'm going to have to work through.

It's a lot like taking two strangers and putting them in a theme park alone. There's not much tension in that. Take two strangers and put them together in a box.........big difference! The stranger is me.....me and myself.....face to face.....and there's not going to be any escaping that! It's gonna be crazy, scary, and I don't know................super difficult. And that's if all goes well. I'm not going to get any support from the people around me, that can't relate to anything I'm going through. That will make it even harder. No one is going to understand me acting crazy. It's gonna be so easy to give up, but.......in no way is that an option!!

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Detox Journal: Hard parts

I'm so ready to change things up. I can't stand this 'same-old' anymore. At the same time.....I'm not looking forward to it. That doesn't make sense. This isn't a 5 day fast, or an herbal flush, this is permanent. I don't know what that means exactly....there's just not any room for failure. The last thing I want to do is fall off the tracks after a few days, bcuz it's too much. I'm going to have to pay extra attention to how I introduce the whole thing on a physical and sub-conscious level, so my body doesn't retaliate violently, or fight me through the beginning stages. I need cooperation from myself! Self can be the hardest to work with. Nobody knows me better, knows what buttons to push to derail me, break me down, etc. I can't have any of that.

THINGS THAT I KNOW WILL BE HARD FOR ME...

1) Giving up cigarettes will by far be the worst. Not that I believe my body will retaliate much, it's all the emotional and comfort crap that will rear it's head! I find I don't have too much problem when I'm keeping myself busy with chores, and James. The cravings aren't too bad to deal with. The absolutely hardest thing for me.....is being on the computer without smokes!!!!! I'd say it's impossible, but that's defeatist! If I wasn't doing anything important online, I'd just pack up the computer and stay away from it for a few months. But...with working online...that's not an option. It's going to be the hardest part of my lifestyle change.....no doubt!

2) Going to give up coffee as well, at least 14 days, as part of my initial cleanse. I might just give it up altogether and do teas, or alternative coffee which I don't mind. I consider myself a 'serious' coffee drinker, not as bad as I use to be....drinking it constantly through the day and evening. Now, it's about 3 cups in the morning, and sometimes one in the PM. I've quit before for cleanses, and there's the WORST headaches from stopping. Passes in a couple days. Besides that reaction....the hardest part (again) will be losing the 'comfort' of it, and the emotional addiction.

3) Living with others that not on the same page! This is a big one. I live with Southerns. That means meat and more meat, and bread. Bread is something to accompany all meals, if not that...then potato chips. Soda or beer are the beverages of choice. Milk is extremely important.....a gallon per week/per person; as is cold, sugar-cereal. Everything that isn't fried, is either barbecued, or smothered. Acceptable side dishes are: potato salad, mashed potatoes, french fries, fried okra, macaroni and cheese, and the healthiest of of the list....coleslaw. Then there's sweets. Typically anything on sale from the bakery department, plus Oreo's, Lil'Debbies, and the like. This is the polar opposite of what I consider healthy food to be. I'm pretty immune to being in the house, unless I don't have the energy or time to cook. I'd prefer not to have it in the house at all! I don't want any of it. Another problem is James getting into bad habits with food. He loves chips, and french fries, and meat. I have noticed that when I take the time to prepare something healthy and it tastes good...when I put a lot of love into the food....he eats really well. When I'm terrible and put a microwave meal in front of him, he just plays with it. This change is for James as well as myself! Need to be vigilant!

4) Changing my ENTIRE routine! Somehow turning everything into a SACRED ritual of self LOVE is not going to be easy. I'm sure there are a lot of people, a lot of professionals....that would warn against such an undertaking. That small steps are more realistic, and realistic is better. On top of that, other would warn against any radical detoxing that would over-tax the body. I understand those perspectives and take them into account. From another perspective though....Why keeping doing things that aren't productive? That are detrimental, pointless, or take in us a direction we don't want to go? Or don't go in direction whatsoever......that tends to be my gig. I know it's not going to be easy, and.....that thought will be ten-fold once I begin. I'm just sick of going in an out of each day feeling blah, added to the guilt of where I feel I should be at. I'm not speaking about some fantasy lifestyle where I'm swimming around in an infinity pool, looking out over the french riviera, with a billion dollars, and a new body. I'm just talking about being healthy, always making the healthy choice, and aligning myself with life energy and love. That's where we're all supposed to be anyway. It's our natural state of being, so how hard could it be???? I'll keep ya posted! :P

 

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My Detox 2012

This is something I feel I've been gearing up for forever! I'm exhausted with all the thinking and research I've done up till now. How long my higher-self has been leaning on me to do something, and all the excuses I've used have become unbearable, boring, and pointless. How many times can I say "tomorrow"? And why? Not bcuz I have anything else more important. There's absolutely nothing more important. It's just been pure laziness and procrastination on my part. And, an inability to accept fully loving myself. THIS IS NOT THE MESSAGE I WANT TO BE SENDING OUT INTO THE COSMOS!!! A very wise person would say that...it is not our inabilities that stand in the way of our successes....it's the fear our own powerful state of perfection. That's a heavy thought.

There's no better time then the beginning of a new year to change the course of ones journey. As kids I think we like the idea. We hear our parents proclaiming change for the better, drink in hand, with a big smile, or a hearty laugh. Children learn more about "lip-service", and less about self discipline with these halfhearted "resolutions". I did. As a strong-willed, no-nonsense kid....I found the whole thing stupid and pathetic. Change can happen anytime. From a skewed angle, all I saw was the idea that it was okay to goof off on things till January, then insist for a couple a weeks we know better, then follow it up with endless excuses, guilt, and remorse, till we fall back into bad habits. How bizarre of a ritual is that?? Ironically for me, it is the new year, and going ahead with my plans for change in-spite of the track record...couldn't (actually) be more fitting. It's not the EASIEST times in life that we should decide to change gears....it's change during the most difficult times that proves us stronger! Still, it's all just lip-service till I get down to the actual application of it all!

MY PERSONAL DETOX PROTOCOL FOR 2012

In a nutshell, and starting from various angles....hoping to converge on one simple and healthy program for well-being. I'll write detailed posts on each therapy/protocol, and also (hopefully)...keep journal type posts of my experiences and progress along the way.

  • DRINKING DISTILLED WATER ONLY: Breaks down hardened minerals and calcification in the body, and helps flush the system out.
  • URINE THERAPY: Same as above, but works more quickly, with MANY added benefits.
  • INCREASED ACTIVITY: Not calling it 'exercise', but more activity in general
  • XYLITOL/ERYTHRITOL Protocol: This will be explained in a separate post
  • SUPPLEMENTS: A prenatal vitamin to support breast-feeding, and a few extra things to strength my immune system, and aid in detoxing.
  • PALEO-DIET: Not necessarily stick, but a move away from all processed foods. More raw, and much simpler!
  • QUITTING SMOKING: This one is a big deal. Trying not to look at it as such! Going Cold-Turkey, once and for all!

That's about it. Guess that's enough, since the resolution isn't something simple like, "getting more sleep", or "eating less fastfood". It's a complete and total lifestyle change. Plus, what I've mentioned above it only the tip of the iceberg. There's many other facets involved in (my) detox that are emotional, psychological, spiritual. More mental de-programming, and shit that's built up in the system on other levels. Not just physically. It's the most common reason why people fail at lifestyle changes.
In no way is this going to be easy for me. With the best of intentions....I forget myself on a constant basis, and that's going to be the hardest thing to change. In the midst of all the other stuff that's going on everyday, I forget the simplest things in regard to taking care of myself. I buy vitamins, but them front and center in the kitchen, buy the compartmental dispenser thing to make it easy to keep track of...and there it sits, gathering dust. I buy distilled water, and the only thing I've been using it for is the pets water. It's ridiculous. Every night I go to bed feeling guilty at having forgotten again, about everything. I wake up optimistic, but the minute everyone's up, and things get going....I get side-tracked again. I don't know how I'm going to rectify that?!? Aside from hanging big cards around my neck! 
I'm not really good at a little change here, and a little change there. It has to be something big that involves everything. This is probably not the case for most people. I don't have a lot problems denying myself stuff....actually I'm pretty good at it, except for the cigarettes, which is really my only vice. I don't drink. I don't do drugs. I don't take any medications, and I don't eat that poorly. I'm not a shop-a-holic, a horder, or a whore. No offense to anyone that is. Just listing things off the top of my head, to try and feel optimistic about things to follow. All the things I won't have to give up. :P Maybe they're problems in disguise though?!? Like....I've totally let myself go over the years! I use spend 3 hours every single morning doing my hair and makeup, not including bathing or getting dressed. Just hair and makeup! Even if I wasn't going anywhere, and....for Christs sake, where besides a wedding, the Oscars, or a date with George Clooney....would anyone need that much time to get ready? I literally go weeks now without even bothering to look in the mirror. I haven't bought any new clothes in years.....okay, besides fuzzy pajamas! I could care less now about makeup, hair, and what-not-to-wear. Still, I'm open enough to consider the fact that possibly this isn't the most healthy perspective.
That's where it gets a little confusing with the whole cleansing/detox thing. Like....getting out of the shower, the last you want to do is rub a bunch of crap allover your body, like lotions, deodorant, and perfume. But, there's another aspect to the "new me" that might benefit from a little spoiling. I'm not sure yet. Have to think about it. Would that be a ritual of self-love, or would be a step in the wrong direction? To put on a little lip gloss, and a dab of essential oil? I think it would help keep my spirits up; like actually putting clothes on in the morning...rather then wearing PJs all day. Who knows?!? I'm totally rambling now!!!!!
My biggest problems are being lazy, leading a sedentary lifestyle, and a problem focusing on goals. This lifestyle change is going to be a BITCH!!!! I know it is. No doubt about it. I'm on for a rough time! As far as I understand it.....if I can force myself to adhere to the rules for a month, then I'll fall into a routine of it....hopefully. God forbid it takes more then a month of absolute self-discipline. Not that I expect it to be fun after a month. I know it will probably take a year before there's no thought required at all. I'm also familiar enough with detoxing to know that in midst of things going great....there will difficult times that pop up. As solidified shit is broken loose physically....it carries with it emotional shit that just as toxic. It goes hand-in-hand. There's a lot of crap to deal with at the beginning of detox, but it's nothing compared to the big chunks that break loose down the road. The stuff we didn't even know existed.....it's buried so deep.
People that practice detoxing and cleansing on regular basis, understand one thing that's extremely beneficial........things will be going great, there will be all this energy, and focus, and calmness, and a interesting natural buzz. Everything is working great, and they'll claim they've never felt better in their life. Then, suddenly they're flat on their back....sick, exhausted, bent over the toilet, etc. Those that are seasoned will tell you very calmly that this is a very good thing! Your body is reacting adversely to some terrible toxic substance that's broken loose. Basically it will feel like a bad flu.....with mucus, and headaches, and body aches, and blurred vision, foggy brain, exhaustion, etc. REST! Drink plenty of fluids, make sure you're eliminating frequently/easily, and rest, rest, rest. In a few days.....you'll feel even better then you were claiming you felt last week! And so the process goes until you're truly cleaned out. It's taken a lifetime to get to the point you're at now. It's not going to fix itself overnight. That should be understood from the beginning. 
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