It''s a common understanding amongst the Mysfit crowd, of how certain other forums and discussion boards will actually cause physical symptoms of general illness, not to mention the problem of outright psychic attack from some places.\r\n\r\nI don''t know why I started down a particular path this morning...looking for solutions to generate some passive income on-line? Must have come from trying to optimize my blogs. I really just wanted to increase traffic to my site, but it''s not easy to head down that path, without ending up on the "easy money" freeway.\r\nIt just all feels so wrong to me. I really believe in money in exchange for goods (if we''re gonna have to use it).\r\n\r\nI tried justifying it first thing this morning over coffee, saying..."someone''s going to take their money anyway, might as well be me. Money after all is the root of all evil, and if not that then it''s not even a ''real'' thing. It''s a belief system. I might actually be helping others by taking it off their hands". None of it worked. All I kept seeing was the conspiracy, and the idea that it''s all too massive to break down, and deconstruct back to something honest...that''s what first started to make me feel edgy and overwhelmed, and sick to my stomach. One of the sites explained..."by the time you''ve taken ten minutes to read this page...147 thousand dollars has been spent on on-line gaming". Something like that.\r\n\r\nIt''s just all so sad. Oh, I know the people out there that make it work for them aren''t sad, but it''s still a pyramid scheme. It''s still parasitic. It''s still middle-man stuff that I see as such a big part of the problem. Just being redirected from one site to another as I attempt to figure out what''s a vertical, and a lens, a downstream, an upstream, matching bonuses, and active associates, and how all the percentages and generations and gems figure into it all. All day long I soaked up the energy from these sites that wasn''t anything but empty, desperate, overwhelmed, frustration, and hopelessness. That''s not what you''d pick up from reading the sites. It''s all up, up and away in beautiful balloons of success and greenbacks. Ha. It''s the same exact energy that''s exchange during an attack.....and I''m suffering for it now! :(\r\n\r\nI feel totally crappy, dirty, ill. I feel like I''ve been crawling around all day on the bathroom floor of some strip club...looking for dimes, and only finding business cards, and phone numbers scratched on stall walls. I feel like vomiting. Is that too dramatic? I don''t think so.\r\n\r\nI''d consider myself a fairly balanced person, but I''ll admit to some fragmentation still. Born severely right-brained creative/sensitive/empathic (on top of the paranormal stuff)...fitting in has always demanded a great amount of my energy. Not so much because I''m not good at it, but because I''m too good at. Anyway...my whole life people have felt the need to constantly advise me on how I should be living, which is mostly on the conservative, straight and narrow. "Get a real job" is what I''ve heard most...being an indie artist. So, I''m just trying to say that I''ve got issues surrounding that idea. I want to prove to people (like my dad), that doing things the "proper" way isn''t hard...I have this need to have to "prove" myself, but at the same time...it goes against the fiber of my existence. Maybe it''s all the waffling that''s making me nauseous???\r\n\r\nI want to include this video that I came across, because I''m planning on doing a lot of follow up around it. Overall, this "Peggy Kane" and I have a lot in common, and I''m very interested in contacting her on a few key things. Anyway...the entire video is worth watching, but she says something about how certain people (her kind) are typically struggling financially here on earth, because we just don''t see the point of money. It doesn''t make sense to us. I concur!\r\nPeggy Kane Interview Volume 1 - Reptilian Agenda\r\n 1 hr 39 min 29 sec - Jul 22, 2007\r\n\r\n\r\nI was reading something last week on the new homeopathic''s being generated on-line; where you take a glass container of water, and wire it up to the output on your computer, and a ten second vibration signal is blasted from the originating website (after you key in your credit card number), and it instaneously becomes a healing product. No shipping charge! ;)Not that I''m going to debate the validity of it.\r\nWho really knows?!? But, it''s sort of the same idea of being downloaded without prior consent...and I think that''s going on on the Internet much, much more the people realize!\r\n\r\nI could have spent today working on art, or writing...and I wasted it by being lured down an alleyway I should know better about. So, I got a little distracted...that''s okay. I''ll think twice next time. I''m just gonna stick to what I feel good about. Posting here and the forum, doing my art, working to get some material together for a book maybe. If I''m gonna do something crazy, and out of the natural for me...I''ll start a radio show, or something nuts like that!