strange experience last night. haven''t dealt with the parasitic attachments in a while. they''ve been quiet. last night i just happened to wind up in one of those odd positions where i''m not doing much of anything that''s distracting, and full astral-body awareness. as usual....kinda gross. just...the whole buggy epidemic thing.\r\n\r\nanyway. noticed two leech like attachments on the back of my neck. i''m sure they''re pressure points. one on either side of my spine, at the base of my skull. they reminded me of tubbers. like nubby, carrot shaped, rubbery. they tapered at the ends, and their mouths were round, suction like, with tiny little teeth. they took some effort removing. and sorta ''popped'' off.\r\n\r\nnot much of anything works to dispose of these attachments. i''ve gotten to the point now, where i use a compression, light method in my hands. compress them down to nothing. but last night for some reason...i decided to go and hold them over the open flame of the stove. and...worked really well. go figure. once they caught fire...they just kept smoldering away to nothing. and i was pretty happy about this. my first response is always to tear them off/out and get rid of them for good! ya know...cuz who wants to be riddled with bugs?!?\r\n\r\nanyway. there was another two in my ears. only half of their bodies were sticking out. the other half of them lodged inside against my brain. i guess. took some work getting the first one out. and that incredible feeling of release!!!! euphoric! and...roasted it alive. :/\r\n\r\ni was working on the second one...when i started choking (again) on something moving around in my throat. it was like ribbons of rubber. tentacles flailing about...probably to get my attention. distract me. so...i started yanking on it. and even more of a euphoric release about it. as i pulled this fairly huge mass of black, rubbery whatever it was....from my throat. the bulk of it lodged around my solar plexus. but as i pulled i felt it release from my back, throat, shoulder area. was nice. freeing. and.......i''m getting ready to burn it, when....the bitch has to start talking to me. warning me that what i''m doing is not a good idea! that it will leave me completely exposed, and that they will no longer be able to "protect" me. so, what am i suppose to do? i''ve got this flailing mass of bizarreness in my hands. wriggling about like a mutant, black, octopus..and speaking in a young girls voice. wtf? i''m also still aware of the others. both my hands are occupied with this one, but i can feel them all start to move about anxiously, concerned.\r\n\r\ni think i hold on to her for awhile. thinking on it all. i must have eventually turned her lose, and she wriggled her way back into my astral body, and settled back into position. i did sorta lose focus on her message, and worked a few others loose and toasted them. admittedly i''m torn on what to do. this is a constant theme!!! to get rid of them or not?!? what the fuck are they? what purpose do they serve? are they dependent on me, or me on them? do i want to find out? i can''t read them. i don''t know. i''ve moved beyond reaction now, and maybe have gone too far with it. that i think too hard on it? i know what everyone thinks. get rid of them!!!\r\n\r\nanyway. that''s all old stuff. have wrote about it dozens of times before. the interesting part is that i''m standing near the television, but it''s not really a tv...more some kind of monitor. and i grab hold of one wriggly attachment that''s working it''s way out my side...repositioning itself. and for some reason i hold it against the monitor screen and it starts absorbing into it. the screen digests it. like.........ribbon, like cassette or video ribbon. and.........it''s starts printing out this shit on the screen. it''s all code. some genetic language. and there are pictures. more....icons. egyptian ones. right away i recognize the ibis one, and the dog, and some other birds, and all hieroglyphics. reed boats, and tools, and i couldn''t catch it fast enough. was just scrolling past quickly, while pulling this thing out of my side and deciphering it.\r\n\r\nstrange bcuz the girly attachment in my throat, right away crawls out (partially) and starts tapping the screen. everywhere she touches....the code is erased. and i keep trying to block her, and she''s going on about how....i don''t need to see that. i don''t need to bother myself with it. not important, etc. etc. nor important!!! bullshit! i still don''t know what to think about it. but....doesn''t make me feel anymore confident about doing away with them. that they''re just seedy, nasty, mindless things. i was tossed out of my astral body at that point. and decided to try and focus more on some sleep, rather then work back into body and go at it again. no place really to go with it at this point. as usual with the attachment...i''m stumped!