For those that haven't done a lot of deep, intense, spiritual work...please let me save you some effort and energy! Everyone starts out seeking some secret or answer to the meaning of it all. There's only one thing to understand where all spirituality is concerned, one spiritual practice, and that's it. It's in BEING PRESENT.........in the moment. It's the hardest thing in the world to do! Being present is the solution for the sum of all problems! It cancels out everything else!
When one is present, there's no need to forgive, no need for fear, no search for love, no feeling misplaced, no need to keep score, etc, etc,. There is only now, and now is always perfect. "Being" is an absolute! There's nothing to add to it, and nothing to take away. It is, and that's all there is to it. It's what Zen Masters specialize in, and what all the rest of us hope to attain. The entire process of clearing ones self from the past, and releasing ourselves from some predetermined future...is fascinating to say the least. I spent a good ten years in deep, spiritual contemplation, without much fulfillment. It was one, Jiddu Krishnamurti that set things straight for me...in a book called "The Awakening of Intelligence". Jiddu's work is not for everyone, but I have to suggest it just the same. It's brilliantly simple, if one can wrap their heads around it, and basically that means: putting aside everything you think you know about everything!
Thought itself is old. By the time you think of something it has already taken place. Words are old. By the time you open your mouth to speak about something...it is past. In essence, there is no point thinking or speaking about anything. What's done is done. The simplicity of such things seems to outrage the average person. We define ourselves by what we "think" (we know), and (as humans) we love to demonstrate ourselves, and our knowledge by speaking (tirelessly) about everything; even that which we know nothing about. We all have opinions, and we all know deep down inside...they stand for nothing. Yet, we press and press. It get's very complex, why we have such a need to do these things. A lot of it is conditioned or programmed into us. Monkey see monkey do. We learn it, and nothing else. It's "normal" behavior. But, it's not spiritually intelligent by any means. Meaning to say, it's not where we could be, what we have the ability to attain...it's just where we're all comfortable hanging out. And holy crap.......................it's exhausting. Really, truly, exhausting! We hold onto all these past experiences like they define us, all the while collecting a shitload of information from those around us...to help us navigate life, and hopefully point us in some meaningful direction. We look to others to help us chart our course, forgetting that everyone around us is just as LOST as we are. We take all that information and roll it all up into some ridiculous ball of expectations, and project all of it into some future we wish to place ourselves in. Blah, blah, blah....to simplify. We live in the past, and project ourselves into the future.....all the while we're missing the NOW.
It's hard-wired in! It's the most difficult habit to break! Especially nowadays! Some practice yoga, others meditation. Some veg in front of the boob-tube, others in video games, some take drugs, others medication, some drink, or work themselves into a daze...all in an attempt to find a little peace of mind. Basically we look around at ourselves, and others...........and who's truly happy, blissful, content? Who amongst us, isn't searching for "something"??? In truth.......we need not search for anything, we need not be heading in any direction. If we could all just stand in the moment, and be, as is. That's the challenge for all of us.
I'm not going to change anyone's perspective in one post, and my intention is not to "fix" anyone. All I can suggest is the practice of letting it all go...that some new insight might be earned. Just to make the effort to view what's going on with "you" from moment to moment, when you think of it. Study and be aware. Is the thought you're thinking old? Is the thought you're thinking an expectation (based on old thoughts & experiences)? Is how you're acting...conditioned into you? Is how you're feeling something that holds onto you? Is it based on things that have happened in the past that you care not to repeat? Or, something you wish to repeat bcuz it brought you happiness at some point? Then......laugh at all that and let it go for a moment, and BREATH! It doesn't matter what it is, or where it's coming from...let it go for a moment! All of it gets in the way of the now! Even when we "hope for the best"...it's a move away from the moment. There is no "better" direction. No other place to be. It's not a thing that we can find and hold onto. If we're lucky.....we recognize it from time to time. Fleeting "moments". It's not a thing to be "consumed" with.
THROUGHOUT TODAY, WHEN IT COMES TO ME....I WILL RECOGNIZE WHERE I'M STANDING...IN THE MOMENT. AND I WILL BE GRATEFUL FOR WHERE I AM AT. WITHOUT THOUGHT. WITHOUT MEASURE. IN THAT MOMENT...I WILL NOT LOOK AROUND TO SEE WHO IS WATCHING ME. I WILL NOT LOOK AROUND TO CHECK HOW OTHERS ARE DOING, AND HAVE OPINIONS ABOUT ANY OF IT. I LEAVE ALL OPINIONS FOR OTHERS. I WILL NOT LESSON THE MOMENT, BY THINKING OF ALL THE THINGS I DON'T HAVE. OR WHERE I WOULD RATHER BE. I WILL NOT PRIDE MYSELF ON WHERE I AM, NOR WILL I LIMIT MYSELF BY THINKING I AM NOT WHERE I SHOULD BE. I WILL LET EVERYTHING GO FOR SMALL MOMENTS...AND BREATH IN THE NOW.